Do you think your personal attacks make up for what you lack?

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 23:06:46 GMT

So today I woke up & was sick.
but when I went to the doctor they told me that my last tests came back with a really low thyroid hormonal level.
& this is only common in like 35 or older women or when you have menopause!

it makes you have anxiety ( which I have ) I can never do anything for too long.
Slows down your metabolism A LOT. & very hard to loose the weight. ( why being on diets for years hasn't worked )
it causes depression.
the Thyroid controls every organ and it's hormonal balance.

It sucks to know that for so many years ive been trying to loose weight & to find out it was never really possible sucks A LOT.

The treatment to get me on track is 8 to 12 months.
but it ussually has to continued through your whole life.

this is really scary and weird and shocking.

I miss that skinny happy girl I was in middle school.

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 05:36:53 GMT

So School is kinda weird.
It's getting hard.
& it's weird cause this is the year that matters the most with getting into college.
My brothers a freshman, 14, & he's getting college letters trying to persuade him to go to their college w/ a scholarship.
I'm kinda jealous.

but my sweet sixteens next friday.
it doesn't seem like that big of a deal.
I get my liscence the 25th (if I pass) lol.

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 00:33:49 GMT

soooo school starts soon.
i'm gonna die.
Trig/adv alg.
AP hist.
chemistry.
french 3.
english.
psychology.

fuuuuuck.

oh well.

I don't want summer to end.

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 05:22:26 GMT

I deleted my myspace.

I have a new screenname.

blond3 m3gan

I'm dying my hair natural blonde tuesday like a caramel color with blonde.
kinda like nicole richies i guess.
i'm excited.

& I have became obsessed with tanning once again.

& I got a car!

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 22:13:40 GMT

This was one of the best weekends ever.
It started out with lots & lots of blunts.

& ended with me coming home to the CUTEST red gucci ballet flats.

time to go clean & do laundry.

& everyone in their mom has a sidekick.
I swear they'll be a table with beers, like 10 sidekicks & ashtrays.

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 17:05:01 GMT

I wanna get my nipples pierced.
i'm doing it.

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 03:56:43 GMT

Spring break was good.

Probably the most fun was taking my dads Z & driving down to PB with chrissy.
She got the cutest lil pipe.
it's so small.

hmm I don't really remember most of it.
but I just want school to be over.

I haven't been able to sleep well lately.
I need to try something new to help.
I'm not sure what.

PS. I can't find my ipod & i'm sad :[

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 23:01:41 GMT

there are so many little things & some big things taht just wanna make me punch someone.
Or cry in my room all night.
Orrr just fucking be a bitch to everyone.

but yah know what?
Life could be a lot fucking worse.
Someone brign me cigarettes.
someone stole mine & some marijuana would be amazing too.

I just wanna fucking chilll.

fuck everyone.

I'm going to listen to atmosphere & clean & do whatever the fuck makes me happy.

fuck lucy.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck playas

& especially those sluts.

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 05:02:53 GMT

So I haven't smoked for 3 days.
It's hard cuz that's all my friends do.
& I love them to death.
I'm not going to stop hanging out with them.
it's just weird.
I'm probably going to smoke saturday cuz me chrissy & alli have to go to this dance thing at UCSD for dance class.
but whateverrr.

btbam tomorrow night.
wow, i'm actually going to a show.
weird.
haven't been to one of those in months.

ew

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 05:39:20 GMT

Wow, I haven't been on this in a while.

I need to quit smoking weed.
help me.
What i'm doing isn't working.
or stop smoking as much as I do.

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 23:25:09 GMT

so last night was fun.
we got a hotel.
so it was like 10 of our friends.
fuuuun stuff.

anyways, i already broke my new years revolution..
& i lost my wallet. & i can't find anything i want/need.
& i have to read catcher in the rye by tuesday.

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 03:23:38 GMT

I haven't updated this in like a month.
I just got back from SWAT.
it was really fun, & i got so much better at snowboarding.
I want to go like everyday now.

i kinda hate livejournal now.
peace.

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 16:18:38 GMT

hangovers are a bitch.
i realized that when you're at the bar you don't feel drunk
but when you leave you're fucking retarded
i totally fell on my ass in front of like 10 hockey guys.
me & my sister are so hungover.

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 04:13:21 GMT

Canada is so fun. i got into my first bar last night! i used my sisters ID and everyone thinks i'm my sisters older sister. she's 20 & everyone thinks i'm like 20 or 22. & they're all like "fuck off" becase they don't believe me. it's really funny because they have an accent. we went to a bar that my dad always went to when he was my age & he played for the hockey team & he was so happy for me haha it was really cute. & then we went to a kegger after. i was really drunk, but what else is there to do in canada?
CANADIAN BEER!

Dennis, my sister & me

Paul & I, He had a kegger & won 8,000 dollars for being manboobz of Toronto!

Cory's a funny drunk

My sister Cindy & I at the bar!

Whitney & me

Whitney, Me & Nicole

Jaclyn & I

me & Whitney

what the fuck are we doing?

Cory, Cindy, Paul, Me & Paul's mom

It's snow niggah

so fucking fun.
more to come.
this was only my first night.

Sat, 19 Nov 2005 06:44:12 GMT

I leave for Canada in 8 hours & 12 min.

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 20:13:58 GMT

i took these with my new camera.
it's so cool.

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 05:26:43 GMT

I figured out how to not take anything that any of these pathetic losers say to me personally.
you're wasting your time.

Fri, 13 May 2005 15:58:31 GMT

adddd it.
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